Hi I am new to this site. I joined seeking support after losing my mum to ovarian cancer last year. She was dx with stage 3C only 4 months before she died. She had a debulking surgery and got through 2 rounds of chemo. How she died was really traumatic in that she fainted, woke up and then said she didn't feel good and she was going to die, then she passed out and again and fluid came through her nostrils and she eventually stopped breathing while we were waiting on an ambulance . I am not sure exactly what caused her death and it makes me feel guilty for not doing certain things. Like sometimes I think it's the ascites that may have drowned her and it hurts that I didn't press her more to drain her stomach. Also my country was not getting the carbo drug for her 2nd round of chemo and the doctor gave her another drug and I don't know if this poisoned her. But I also feel guilt in leaving my mother just after her surgery tobe with my husband who worked abroad he was missing his son. And when I returned I only spent a month with her before she died. But I had my father and four other siblings caring for her. Does anyone else feel guilt after losing someone?