Im about 2 months into this. Today was treatment 3. Im home, all went well. Im feeling somewhat down. There is no cure for us. When i see comments about holding on because there may b a cure, i silently cringe. There wont ever b a cure because to much money is being made off of cancer. Im down because some people seem to appreciate talking about cancer and then others feel your looking for pity or money or who the hell knows and they want you to not talk about it. Im down b cause a few people i began talking to facebook have accused me of not being sick and then others have believed this crap and deleted me also. I was so excited because i was able to have some of my candles sell to prominent people, but for some reason they are now ignoring me. Im down because i think why r we all going thru this when most likely we will die, since there is no cure. I dont like being controlled by the ssi system, your penalized if you try to work at all. They want us to sit home and rot. How can we have a quality of life if when we feel well, we r worrying about the roof over our heads or food, etc. I hate all this. Sorry im such a rotten egg tonight.