boac12318's journal

New Picture

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted March 12, 2013
  • 4 replies
  • i found this recently. i want all to see what Bruce looked like before Cancer. this was taken in 2002, but he changed little over the years. He was my love and life and always will be ...

A New Year

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted January 1, 2013
  • 6 replies
  • Well, a new year has begun;Without Bruce . It has been just over 3 months since he passed. I went to visit my daughter and her family before Christmas and had a wonderful time. I had to get out of the ...

2 Month Anniversary (63 days) of Bruce's Passing

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted November 29, 2012
  • 13 replies
  • I made it. I'm not sure how. This entire period of time i am either in absolute shock and/or a mindless numbness that is ongoing. One moment I am functioning by rote, the next moment I will find that ...

Query about Matt_chrs

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted November 15, 2012
  • 13 replies
  • Dear Matt : your posts are greatly missed and I am sure that many of us are worried about you! You have been a great encouragement through your posts. Are you ok? I am speaking for myself ( and others ...

Update and loving thank you to all who wrote to my last posting

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted October 24, 2012
  • 6 replies
  • How can I thank every single one of you for your love; concern and truthful words of support? The two words "Thank You" do not cover my feelings, but they come from the heart! This Sunday will be 4 weeks ...

New Widow Blues and Doubts

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted October 15, 2012
  • 12 replies
  • Bruce passed 28 sept. 2012. His remains are home with me which really does help. I can still make sure he is safe. He wants to be with me until I pass and then both if us scattered together. He lost his ...

One week anniversary

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted October 7, 2012
  • 8 replies
  • On Friday , 5 October 2012, was our 1week anniversary of his ( Bruce) passing. It was also the day in which I picked up his ashes. Let me digress: when arrangements were being made I had an image of being ...

Thank you for your prayers!

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted October 4, 2012
  • 11 replies
  • It will be one week tomorrow night. All the after things have been done. All the home hospital equipment gone . He was cremated today: A Very Bad Day for me. I have no energy, don't want to move. Hard ...

He is gone

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted September 28, 2012
  • 25 replies
  • Fought a hard fight. Brain nets took over from the laryngeal cancer. He's gone ...

Contains Hell at Hospice

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted September 23, 2012
  • 8 replies
  • Please forgive me for asking any and all to read my response to persons from the last journal post as I am too exhausted and livid to be able to repeat what happened yesterday (Saturday) morning. You ...

Hospice and my husbands Hell

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted September 22, 2012
  • 27 replies
  • To top things off: he is still IN constant debilitating pain after 8 days. I am unable to even talk to him, hold his hand, read the Bible as the hospice staff are afraid that I will wake him up ( can't ...

Information needed at the end of this very dark tunnel

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted September 21, 2012
  • 17 replies
  • Hi . Since last post have been admitted to hospice care center to " tweek" pain meds. Wel...... That being said: went in 1 wk ago today. Dr took him off morphine as he was up to 100mg every 3 hrs along ...

Time for acceptance

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted July 23, 2012
  • 25 replies
  • Well all the fighting/chemo/doctors are over with. This past sat H started Bleeding massive from mouth and Trach. Went to local ER, they sent him to fla hospital south in orlando to s dr. Spector (fabulous ...

Response reference to Trach bleed

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted July 18, 2012
  • 5 replies
  • Thank you to all who responded to my journal about my H Trach bleed. Need to clarify a few things though: The ENT who diagnosed the tumor was seen only once snd he referred us to MDAnderson in Orkando ...

Problem with bleeding Trach

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted July 16, 2012
  • 7 replies
  • Long time since I have been on here. Busy with H. The original chemo trestments stopped working, so dr started him on 5FU and cisplantin(?). Unfortunately even a low dose of 5FU really did a number on ...

Male Incontinence

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted April 25, 2012
  • 8 replies
  • Hi. It has been awhile, been busy with doctors , my husband B. , and all the little things as a caregiver that take up the rest of our lives. We have a problem and of course, this is the ONLY place to ...

A Wonderful Day

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted March 26, 2012
  • 5 replies
  • For the first time since H. Was dx with larnygeal small cell carcinoma, end stage ; except for dr appt or hospital visits or medical stuff......WE went out today just to get out of the house. He is feeling ...

Frightened about recent changes

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted March 5, 2012
  • 9 replies
  • B has bern very quiet lately. Over the past month his cough snd phlem had gotten worse not better. Thought it was solely due to the Trach not fitting the stoma hole. But, last week at chrmo treatment ...

Another day given by God

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted February 28, 2012
  • 3 replies
  • Had pet scan done yesterday. Of course now we wait one week, yuk. He now coughs all the time. Radiologist fr said might be post nasal drip? If his nose isn't working ??????? Cannot seem to get over this ...

Help. Things going wrong?

boac12318
  • By boac12318 · Posted February 24, 2012
  • 10 replies
  • While reading posts on Inspire B called me and asked to look st something-his neck left side. Went for Eurbitux treatment and saw invologist on Tuesday and until this afternoon neck looked and felt fine ...

Things you can do