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Wishes do come true!

mlm
  • By mlm
  • Posted June 29, 2009 at 8:08 am · 11 replies
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Here I sit this morning enjoying my coffee, watching the dog run and play in the back yard, and being thankful for the green grass, the sound of the birds and summer. Today I have enough hair to go out without covering my head, I am enjoying my family and friends and I do have a quality life. Last year at this same time I had just finished chemo and was on the mend from 3 recent surgeries (to prevent cancer from coming back). I was looking forward to all these things I am enjoying today, except I was looking forward to being cancer free. Then rediagnosed, devastated, I thought I would never enjoy another summer, would never be able to get that new puppy, would never be able to watch my son play tennis, talk with my daughter about "girl stuff", hold my husbands hand or spend time with friends. First round of treatment-not working, getting worse. The doctor thought I wasn't going to survive (I could see this in his eyes), my husband finally broke down at 3am and we cried together thinking I was losing the battle. One more treatment to try, I did for my family with little hope agree to try this one more time. 3 rounds later I can walk, I am pain free, I feel well. As I sit here on my back porch enjoying all the things of summer that I thought were lost to me, I am reminded of how God has blessed my life and made my wishes come true. The only difference is I am enjoying all this with stage IV cancer. I have come so far since that day of rediagnosis. It is hard to believe! There is hope for all who fight this battle. Remember dreams still can come true.
MaryLynn

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11 replies

chloemom

Dear MLM,
Thanks so much for sharing your beautiful morning with us and all the hope your message generates! Wishing you more rays of sunshine, gentle breezes and the beauty of summer to enjoy from your porch!

Gentlenatured1

I'm enjoying your beautiful morning and life with you, MaryLynn!

God is truly amazing!

May you be pain free, be able to walk and feel well for many years to come!

God's most excellent best to you!

PAMELA

faithmena

I am right there with you. I am on a chemo break and feel almost normal. It feels so good that every day is a gift.
Enjoy and thanks for posting , I am glad we can celebrate with you.

Mena

sr2603

Marylyn I am so glad you are pain free and enjoying the simple things in life like a puppy, the sunshine and the green grass. Thank you for sharing your wonderful journal. Gives us all hope.

kleighk

MaryLynn, your post is inspiring to those of us (like me) who sometimes forget to be thankful for the little things. I get so busy looking at (and being frightened by) the big picture that I forget to look at all the little things that are most important.

StickiVicki

The diagnosis of Stage IV really throws you out for a while. Time does allow us to be able to refocus on the longer picture and see there is a future, even if it is only possible to focus on a future for a year or two.

I have found that living in the present (known as mindfulness) can take the worry away from what will happen in the future. Making plans for the distant future is rather futile as none of us can see what will happen in a couple of years, let along a decade or more. It is best to enjoy now, and appreciate what we have now rather than hoping the future will be better.

Surely by enjoying this moment it can only bring more enjoyment later, no matter how were may be feeling then. We will at least be able to look back and not feel as though we wasted today. We, more than most, cannot afford to waste any more time!

Beachbabe

Thanks so much for sharing, I can FEEL the joy in your writing and will save this one for a 'down' day!!! You are describing what we try so hard to impress upon our sisters who have lost all hope...that the sun may come out tomorrow and things may look better if we can only hang in there.

God bless you~

linskate

Thanks Mim...you are an inspiration. I am trying so hard to appreciate the marvelous wonders around me each day instead of thinking of my cancer. May you continue to have these great days, and continue to progress with your treatments.

hillbillygirl

I share your feelings this am. the sun is so bright today, no humidity in the air and going to be in the low 80's. I feel so glad to be here. Thank you god for this day and all the wonderful folks on this web site. mary

jaf

Thanks for sharing your beautiful day. Sometimes it is hard to focus on all the goodness we have been given but God some how gives us strength to go on each day. May every day be as bright as today.

bizzyfingers2009

Dear MaryLynn,

I completely understand where you are coming from. Last year, I was diagnosed with stage IV peritoneal carcinomatosis and went through all the chemo, losing all my hair, etc. I had surgery on February 23 of this year and they removed all the visible cancer, my spleen, omentum, tail of my pancreas, part of my stomach. I just had a CT scan 3 days ago and it was CLEAR!!! Don't have to see my surgeon/oncologist for 6 months. I am taking one day at a time and enjoying life. It is so nice not to be in pain and I refuse to worry about the future; as it will take care of itself. Hang in there and be strong.

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