To be honest with myself - I think I can see a light -

OK - So it goes without saying some things are looking up this week -

FOOD - (notice I didn't say diet)

I have been making a consious effort to eat breakfast - usually hot cereal with dried fruit mixed in or cold cereal with banana and of course my coffee and I have been keeping that to one and a warm up each day - second meal of the day has been salad or leftovers but I have been estimating that to stay under 300 cal. - the third meal I have been trying to stay under 300 cal. also and then I feel I can have a treat later in the evening like yogurt or fruit or a skinny ice cream(80 cal.) and been kinda proud I haven't had to have that evening treat all the time -
So I still have a ways to go with the food but better than last week -

THE BIG NEWS

first off Donna you just had to ask didn't you - No I don't go back to my Dr. till next Friday but I am being careful anyway -

I am still going to the water arobics I started a couple of weeks ago on Tuesday and Thursday -
I was looking for music and exercise videos and all that stuff last week - asking you guys for advice - tried shopping around town - While going around town I stopped in the new gym in town to see if they had anything - as it turns out they had membership available (daaaaah) Ok - I joined last Friday, this is all new to me never done anything like this before so I have been a bit nervious and excited too -
Went in on Monday for an orientation - I think I scared the trainer - I was a little early so went and got on that thing you guys have talked about (sounds like a cough drop) and way after only two minutes my hart rate went up over 138 - I wasn't sure what It should be so I figured I should try something else - Tread mill was next - I started out at about 2 mph and then the trainer came over and suggested I go faster so he uped it to 3 mph - that only lasted for about 1 or 2 minutes cause my hart rate went up over 130 again - so he put it back to 2.5 mph and I stayed there for about 10 minutes only - He did say that's about the slowest he has ever had any one walk -
Then he takes me over to this step thing - step up hold for count of 3 and back down about 15 times each side - left wasn't to awful but when I tried the right leg I darn near fell of the thing - the question of balance was answered - none if any at all - Ha ha - Last he had me do some squats and after i started he asked if i was doing them - smart A233445 - Well I was just a little disappointed when he said that was all for today - even though I was sweating something awful - His evaluation went something like this - I only use the muscels on the front of my body - back is very weak - back of legs very stiff, tight, and not used - We really have a ways to go -
I go back Wednesday at 8 am - he was going to figure out a program for me to follow - he'll show me what to do and all that good stuff then after a few times on my own he will work with me again to make sure I am doing things right - then once every month he will reevaluate my progress and change up my program - It doesn't seem as funny while I'm typing but we were in stiches the other day -

Hubby although he keeps kidding me about leaving him home alone - said soon I will be a mear shadow of my former self - I think he is really happy to see me doing this - It is still hard for him not to be able to join in - But that is something we both need to learn to deal with and I can only do my part and he will or won't but that's all up to him of course with any support I can give that is -

So I have still tried to be honest with myself and notice what I still need to work on and need to change but this is a little more posative then last week - Don't ya think so -

Love thy self - Ruth