My SCAD Experience just doesn't seem real...

Hi Everyone.. It is so calming to know there are so many others out there experience what just happened to me. I had my SCAD experience 6 days ago. It all just doesn't seem real. I have no heart damage, no heart disease or any other blockage. So in my mind, did I really have a heart attack? I couldn't have had a heart attack.. I am only 48.. In my mind I believe that once I feel 100% again, the medications etc.will not be necessary.

Then there are moments of clarity where I realize I am in denial as to what happened to me. I will be taking 4 different medicines the rest of my life. This is a hard pill to swallow, no pun intend, when I am a person who rarely even took an aspirin.

Has any one else out there experienced the same feelings?

I have been wanting to start an exercise routine to lose some of the weight I have put on due to the stress with my job etc. Now I fear that isn't going to be possible. I am afraid that I will not be able to do anything I have in the past..

Are all of these feelings normal?