Everyone of us has become ultra sensative to our bodys since our heart issues. Am I right? Every little feeling becomes a source of terror. Is that my heart? Is this the big one? What was the last thing I said to my loved ones today?
After my triple by-pass I kept getting this aching down the back of both of my arms. After two weeks I called my DR. I expected to get a nurse on the line and suddenly I hear my surgeons voice. It was about 9pm at night so I was surprised. I explained to him what I was feeling and asked did I have anything to worry about? His reply was, "sometimes a feeling is just a feeling?" Now I realize that he is right many times a feeling is just a feeling and by about a year after your surgery you will begin to know the difference. But my response to the doctor on this particular night was," No a feeling is something that comes and goes, when it stays for two weeks, it is either a symptom or a side affect. We never figured it out and within 3 mos the aching completely subsided.
However...
About a month before the one year anniversary of my surgery I started feeling something on my left side almost to the bottom of my rib cage. It was like holding a straw with liquid in it and when you move your finger a little liquid escapes. I was terrified that possibly one of my graphs were failing. Went to the doctor, he just stared at me smiling gave me that passifying pat and said I don't know what it is, but you don't have anything to worry about.
One year to the day of my surgery I ended up in the ER, heart 50 beats a minute faster than normal, couldn't breathe etc.
One of my graphs or veins on the back side of my heart had collapsed. This is when you realize how amazing the body is, because he explained that it was a small vein and that the other veins around it would compensate. It would be a painful proccess but would cure itself.
Sometimes a feeling is not just a feeling, but it takes a while to know the difference.
Thank God for all of you. Had I known about this site I would have come and asked if any of you had these experiences. I would not have felt so alone or needy.




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