Hi all -
I'm 33 years old, mom to a lovely 17-month old boy, and pretty scared. About 3 years ago I had myocarditis (possibly from Lyme Disease, Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, or other - we might never know). I thought I was all clear, and had a baby. A few months ago I started experiencing abnormal rhythms - lots of PVCs, and a few episodes that felt like my heart was flipping around in my chest. I went to my cardiologist, even to the ER after a fainting episode, and was told it was a panic attack.
I went running about a month ago and felt the rhythm again - only this time it didn't go away. I went to the ER eventually and was in VT. They had to cardiovert me to get me out of the rhythm, it was an awful night. After an MRI, they saw that there was scarring on my heart from the myocarditis, which I was completely unaware of despite seeing a cardiologist regularly.
Then they did an ablation but they said it wasn't successful (there were still 2 additional morphologies causing the VT), so they implanted an ICD. Then this week, I started having the VT again (lower rate, like 110). So they did another ablation yesterday and they think they got all... but I am scared. Since the VT usually happens at night I had an actual panic attack before I went to sleep last night.
I don't know how to deal with my stress, since I usually just go and exercise when I am stressed out. I am worried about how I'm going to continue to work, be a good wife, be a good mother. I just want to be here for my family.
Any reassurances, thoughts, etc would be really helpful. So many people don't understand what it's like to go through this but I think that people here do.
Thanks so much! ;)