I have had a weird feeling since the night I had my heart attack and then quadruple bypass surgery in Sept. 2012 - I feel like I am living someone else's life and these things are not happening to me. I was actually pretty calm during "the event" as my husband and I call it. I went to the ER and walked in under my own power and just said "chest pain" and they took me in immediately. After the catheterization, the doctor came back to me and said "you have a chestful of coronary artery disease." Nice. However, I remember lying in the hospital bed and knowing that I was not going to die. I can only explain that certainty as being from God.
Anyway, since that all happened, including the recovery from surgery and the cardiac rehab, I keep feeling like I am going to wake up from a bad dream and be back to my "normal" dysfunctional self and only have depression as my main disability. Oh, I forgot to mention that I was also diagnosed with diabetes in the hospital, as if CAD were not enough. I see the shock in people's eyes when I tell them I had quadruple bypass surgery. I was 58 at the time and I keep hearing that I am too young to have had that happen to me. Not too young - there was a guy in my rehab group who had a triple bypass operation at age 29.
Does anyone else have that "out of body" experience with all this? Thanks for any replies.