hello ladies! i find strength in reading daily on all the different issues that surround us with heart disease. i have found the last week to be such a cluster of emotions for me. i can't even explain why i want to cry, or why i want to be alone, or why i want to sleep. my husband( we have no children at home) is so loving and understanding. sometimes i wonder why he puts up with me. today our next door neighbor was talking to my husband when i walked out. he had a heart attack a few years back. my husband had told him i was feeling a little under the weather. his comment was " you just have to learn to live with it!" what the hell does that mean. i am so sick of hearing that. i want the people that tell me that to come into my world. it will only take 24 hours. once they decide in what order they will take their 23 pills each day, they try to clean a simple toilet and have to stop to rest, work on the budget and try to get all your prescriptions,( or decide if we should eat this day), stay on indefinite hold trying to find out from a system that allowed you to pay into it out of each of your paychecks( social security), rather your claim is still sitting and waiting for someone to "finish "it. (i don't recall in the 35 years of working, that social security ever let me not pay taxes, it didn't matter what bills were due! they got my $$$ up front. but, due to back logs, we sit , we wait, our health is compromised because we can't afford the meds. if i seem upset, yes i am. i am tired . tired , tired, tired. at least this way i can vent without criticism from someone who hasn't been there. i know all of you have. i just wanted to vent! thanks, i love all of you!
dianne
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bad few days
- By jacksvern
- Posted August 20, 2009 at 3:52 pm · 5 replies
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- By lonewolf7
- Posted August 20, 2009 at 6:27 pm
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Some of my adult children act like that too. One of them even blames me for having a heart attack and feeling depressed and anxious.
A lot of what you wrote, I can relate to since I've experienced it.
Sometimes a good rant is just what we need.
Finding a big pile of money outside our door wouldn't hurt either = )
- By Misty1482
- Posted August 21, 2009 at 4:54 pm
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Aw sweetie, I'm sorry you feel this bad. It rough having those bad days. I have had people tell me to just deal with it, they say you cant change it so why get upset, its done and over with. And one of those people was my DAD of all people. He loves me to death, but I guess he was scared because of what happened to me (i'm only 27) I told my mom what he said and that it really hurt my feelings and I think she went back to him, because he never said it again to me. I havent had the prescription issues, I guess I got lucky there. I'm only on 6 meds. But I have had your days and still do. I think we all do. I just wanted to give you some encouragement to try to keep your head up. Its been one year today that I had my emergency c-section and triple bypass and I keep remembering oh at this time, I was doing this at this time I was doing that, this is how i felt about this hour. Its nuts. I try to keep positive and happy, my baby is now a year old so that gives me encouragement. I hope your days get better. Best of luck.
Lots of love,
Misty
- By nanamo
- Posted August 23, 2009 at 8:52 am
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hugs
i too at the start had soemone tell me to get over it WHAT THE HELL I SAID when you have been what i have been thru and take all the meds i take and feel the pain i feel everyday of my life and live with not knowing if that pain in the chest is just pain or my heart then tell me to get over it i will not get over it I SURVIVED and i will tell my story i willl live each day good or bad but dont tell me to get over it.yeha it happened nothing i can do about that but what i can do is live for my family and try my best to make sure what happened to me wont happen to another young lady that was dismissed because she was qoute to young to have a heart attack BS
so my dear you see we have our good and bad days and we have those that dont understand but its our job as survivors to educate them on this deadly disease hugs
god bless
surviving heart disease one day at a time
with trigger 04/08
for 10 years
nanamo
- By 9yrsandcounting
- Posted August 23, 2009 at 11:02 pm
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I still get treated with kit gloves around my family and it has been 9 years. Any time I feel emotional, they are all, let us help, we have been there. Calm down, calm down.
But until recently, I would bottle up everything and I finally let it all out. I thought if I would get too emotional, I would bring on another HA. But lo and behold, I didn't. I was amazed, and chalked up another one passed.
Just vent Sweetie, we all understand.....
- By Lynnedz56
- Posted August 24, 2009 at 7:44 am
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It amazes me that no matter what I'm feeling or what I need, I come here and someone has the exact same feelings. My son asked me why I feel "stressed". He tries his best, but he just doesn't understand. I've been having the exact same few weeks.
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