Well, I have my dr. appointment tomorrow, and my job is going to allow me to work until the day of surgery which is a blessing and will keep my mind off everything else going on. Had a conversation with my 6 year old last weekend about what was going to happen, and she is so excited that her momma is going to be part pig. It is so funny how the little ones only see the cool parts of things. She is sure I'm going to oink when I get out, so I've been practicing my very best pig noises and rooting techniques lol. My dr. had mentioned that eventually I may also need a pacemaker. That will be my new bit of research, but what concerns me is how my mother is reacting and responding. The whole last hospital stay (when they found the problem) she would call me to cry about it. I felt fine about the procedure. But her being so upset don't help! I was always a sickly child born with Arthritist etc. So she always wanted to take care of me and I am EXTREMELY independent from the time I was 5 or 6. However, she has conveinced me for the time being that I should come stay with her until after my surgery etc. I have been there since I got out of the hospital about 2 weeks ago from gallbladder surgery and can literally do NOTHING for myself. I came back to work early just to escape her. She is very protective and caring and has always took care of others. However, I don't know at what point the line got crossed that she came into my bedroom and asked me if she could cuddle with me until I fell asleep. This is all before my surgery. I realize that I will need all the help I can get afterwards, but before I want to be able to breath and have some freedom. I love my mother more than anything in the world, however being 35 and her being 65 and trying to constantly force feed me foods that do not agree with me and making my bed and trying to put me in it at 7:30pm every evening is getting old. I am not sure how much more I can take before I say something smart and hurt her feelings. That is the last thing I want to do, but if I don't have some space before this surgery it is going to happen. I can shut the bathroom door and she comes and knocks and asks to come in and what I am doing... I asked her last night if she wanted to see what I was doing before I flushed? She didn't appreciate this much and I know it was very ugly of me to say, but I'm hoping someone has a secret to help be become invisible for the next few weeks! Please understand I am so grateful to have my mother healthy and willing to take care of me (even if it should be the other way around). I know how lucky I am, but I would like to have a couple of hours a week just to not be hounded by her. She feels I need to eat every hour on the hour and I don't have an appetite yet after gallbladder everything still tastes bad. I'm just venting I guess, but I do need space.