Weight Loss Surgery For Me

I am highly considering either Gastric Bypass or the Lap Band. For me I feel like this is my last chance. I can't tell you I've tried every diet under the sun. I'd be lying if I did. I have tried a lot of them though. I am in no way taking the lazy way out as some of you have said in these discussions. I know the risks and I think they out weigh the benefits.

My highest that I know of was 342lbs. I am currently atleast as of a few weeks ago 316lbs. My BMI is over 50. I lost the 26lbs by cutting out all fast food and cutting out sweets by 98%. I still sometimes slip up but I am eating so much better and healthier. I went down to 301 and then I got put on a new med and boom there goes 15lbs. It is very difficult for me to exercise like I want to. In order to do anything I have to take 1 to 2 pain pills every 3 hours.

I have fibromyalgia, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, asthma, acid reflux, Bi Polar, Pre Diabetic and I am also Schitzaphrenic. I know if I stay the way things are I will only be put on more meds, get more ailmesnt and have the ones I have get even worse. If I stay this way I will die young either from my ailments or my own doing. So please don't judge. Who knows what else I have. All of my meds and ailments cause me to gain weight or just be in extreme amounts of pain that somedays I can barely get out of bed or even do anything. I've never really been able to live. My problems have held me back from living a happy and healthy life. I've never had a boy friend, never held hands, never kissed and im still a virgin.

I want a happy and healthy life. I want to be like a normal 24yr old. As normal as I can be with my forever ailments (fibromyalgia, bipolar, schitz etc)I wanna live and travel and do whatever I want to do. I want to get married maybe have kids. Instead I feel trapped in solitary confinement. I feel like im in prison and theyve locked and thrown away the key.

On top of everything else I work 55 and sometimes more hours a week. I also live with my oldest sister who is Bipolar and Schitzophrenic (sp?). She also has disc problems and fibromyalgia so she is on some pretty strong pain killers as well. She is of great inspiration to me. She has lost 110lbs and feels better atleast about her appearance. Her pain is just as bad if not worse.

My thinking is that I would rather go thru with this and hopefully have a happy life afterward. If things go wrong then they go wrong. Id rather die than stay this weight and keep on the path im on. Im thinking of this realisticly. Im not expecting this to be a cure all. I am hopeing it will lessen atleast some of my problems. I just want to be happy healthy and see my self as a beautiful human being.

Is there anything you think would be useful for me to know or prepare for things? I welcome all of your coments but please dont put me down for my personal feelings about this surgery.
Anyways thanks for listening to my lengthy post.

Cella