My mom is yelling day & night & she is clearly going backwards mentally. She was doing so well in July. I remember one of the kind nurses told me that I would know when it would be time to let go, and I really believe it is time. She is on Ativan and hydrocodone & so drugged out, but if she doesn't have it, she screams.
We hoped she would do better at home. When she was in the hospital, she cried and kept saying, "Home" and even said, "I want to go home." On the day that she went home, she even laughed with joy.
She doesn't even respond or react to my daughter, who was the light of her life.
I do believe that my mom will go to Heaven, & she will be much better off there than here. I won't be better off though. I had planned on taking care of my mom in case my dad passed away before she did. I told her that she could live with me. This is so hard to let go of the person who loves you more than anyone else ever could. A mother's love is irreplaceable. I don't know how I'm going to survive without my mom. The world seems scarier and colder without my mom in my life & let me tell you, my little girl is so sad. She is a grandma's girl all the way.
Praying for you all out here who are suffering and going through this too.



