Went to the ER today......fun.... ;P

My shoulders, hips, ankles, and back have been aching fiercely today. Apparently my left shoulder wanted more attention than the rest because it decided to act up really badly. I was sitting at my computer, my left elbow on the desk, my chin leaning on my hand when I noticed that I was jerking forward repeatedly! The muscles in my shoulder, running up my neck and down my arm, were spasming. After about 20 minutes my shoulder started to feel like it was on fire. Since my physician didn't give me anything for the Fibromyalgia, I went to the ER. They gave me muscle relaxers and an anti-inflammatory.

I'm such a baby. I cried on the way to the hospital. I just kept thinking "This is my life, this is what I have to look forward to". It just hurts. It makes me feel depressed to know that this, among other things, may happen again and again.

I took the muscle relaxer and my shoulder is feeling a little better. I'll start the anti-inflammatory in the morning. I'm a bit afraid to take it. I took a prescription strength one a few years back and ended up with a GI bleed. I keep wondering how I will deal with this disease if my system won't tolerate the anti-inflammatorys'. I'm guessing that would mean having to get shots of it, rather than oral.

I keep thinking that I feel a lump in my arm but maybe it's my imagination. It's hard to force myself to feel for it. The muscles feel bruised! I can feel the lymph nodes are swollen near my armpit on that side. This disease is astounding in what it can do to our bodies. To think that a few months ago, I'd never even heard of it!

****Sigh****