The next part.....

I forgot to mention that around the time I found out that I would need an arthroscopy, I also found out that I had Morton's Neuroma. Kind of like Sarcoidosis, you think that the doctor mis-spoke when they said it for the first time. Morton's what? Something much simpler than sarc though. Just a bundle of nerves being pinched between the bones in my foot. I received the first steroid injections while I was having my arthro. It was nice to get to miss out on that because when I did have to have them while being awake! WOW! Luckily the Dr. had a solution. I had several shots of a scarring agent to kill off those nerves and it worked.

So, thankfully I can walk without pain. There are some things to be thankful for in this life.

I think that it was 2003 when I had those things done. And after I healed from the surgery, things started to look up for me for a little while. I went to a therapist who encouraged me to enroll in school. I went back to school during the fall of 2004. I had shed 80 pounds and started excercising regularly. I was in THE best shape of my life, mentally and physically.

Then I started Depo Provera. My ob/gyn sold it on me, saying that it would stop me from ovulating and be a solution to the ovarian cysts.

I was working part time, taking 6 classes, and caring for the kids. After the depo, I started having headaches and gaining weight. I knew the weight was a side affect of the birth control. The headaches I should have seen a Dr. about but my life was so busy and I felt like I didn't have time for a bunch of testing. I put the headaches down to stress and just pushed on. When the fatigue hit, I couldn't ignore it.

At 27, if you start feeling like you HAVE to pull your car over and take a nap or fall asleep behind the wheel, and you got plenty of sleep, something is wrong. So, I went to the Dr. Her answer, it's the Depo. It shocked me. THAT is when I finally took the time to look up Depo and what it actually does! It's poison, in my opinion. To my body it was. I bled every day for 8 months. I packed on 80 pounds. My Saturdays were hell! A 4 hour Algebra class, with a pounding headache the entire time. Somehow, I managed a B! :)

I stopped the depo. It took 18 months for my body to return to normal. To start ovulating again, that is. I had no cysts during that time, so it served one purpose but made me sick in the process.

I scraped by that semester with a 3.05. Not too bad for a Mom who works part time. And who started out with 6 courses! But it was hard, harder trying to take care of things at home with no support and a resentful husband. I didn't return to school.

I plan to. I'll start again this January and I'm looking forward to it. I need it! I need to know that I am working towards my goals. When I manage to climb out of this hell of mine, I'd like to be able to help others.