I have been thinking, which is a feat in itself some days! LOL!! Just how good can we realistically expect to get?
I work for a local eye doctor and get to know a lot of our patients and in return, they get to know me. Many of them know I have been sick for a long while now and often ask me how I am feeling. I never know quite how to answer that. I mean gee, I am feeling MUCH better than I was but I think if a "normal" person felt like I do, they would probably be gripping up a storm!
It took almost 4 year to get the right dx for me. I had some REALLY low points during that time. Went through long periods of extreme pain on a daily basis along with all the other fun stuff this disease has to offer. Compared to my worst, I feel pretty darned good. The remicade is really helping and things are calming down a bit health wise.
I haven't had any uvietis in over 2 months, haven't needed any steroids in two months either. I would say 3-4 days a week, I can get by with just regular doses of extra stregnth tylenol and usually the other days, two vicodins are sufficient.
I am never pain free but after living in a state of extreme, constant pain, I will take what pain I have and not complain too loudly. I still have fatigue most days but again, its better than it was. My chest hurts most all the time but its usually not awful, still a bit short of breath. I can't do things like I used to, I have to limit how much I do and for how long but I guess I am learning to adapt.
Would I like to feel even better, CERTAINLY but is it really realistic? I don't want to waste energy focusing on the pain and stuff I still have as I think its better to focus on how to adjust to my new normal. How do we know if this is as good as it gets for us? I always have a little pocket of hope in the back of my mind that I will improve more but is that likely to happen? Do other people think this same sort of thing? Will I ever be able to clean ALL my house in one day or should I just be content with being able to clean a couple of rooms at a time?



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