I often get judge when I go to hospitals. I have experienced getting treated last and sometimes not at all because i don't always cry when I'm in crisis. I talk alot to try to distract myself from dwelling on the severity of my pain. I even had a nurse who told me i was gone die if i took my pain medicine just because he had a bad day and another to give me normal saline instead of my medicine because she thought it was too much and a dr. who tried to put me in aconvalescent/nursing home. Honestly now I am afraid to take my medicine and afraid to go to the hospital while I am in crisis. The only person who could relate to me, my best friend sharon, died from sickle cell my first year in college. can anyone else relate to this type of treatment and/or the fear of trust with hospital staff and/or dying?? please reply..