Since my diagnosis I have viewed life differently. I truly value the good moments more and more though the bad moments are still so very hard to bare sometimes. I have the worst time with the pain that just stops me from doing anything and everything I want to do!! It' hard to stay focused and positive through the pain but I'm learning....
I wrote the poem Loveology last summer when they started testing to find a reason for my chest pain and thought I might have Leukemia because my bone marrow showed up abnormal but further testing concluded that I didn't have that....but they stopped testing for other reasons until a crisis at Christmas and that's when they found this illness....hope you enjoy the poem.
LOVEOLOGY
The secret to a healthy life
Pull me, push me,
Rip me apart.
I feel no peace,
As I clutch my heart.
They speculate the cause,
This constant pain.
The doctors point at x-rays
Searching for blame.
Can you measure a heart ache
In an EKG?
If they took an x-ray
What would they see?
Would an MRI
With it’s contrast dye,
Reveal the scars
And why we cry?
In their crisp white coats,
With framed degrees,
They analyze and hypothesize
Yet what do they see?
Can they see within my soul?
Do they see my tears?
Can they read my mind
As they instill more fear?
No, they see all
Yet they are blind,
As they ignore the truth
Within scientific signs.
Lost in results,
The science of math,
Do they see the human
Who cries and laughs?
Would a doctor write a prescription,
For happiness and bliss?
Would he prescribe laughter
And a lover’s tender kiss?
Does he not see….?
HAPPINESS, the cure,
SORROW, the disease,
For only love is pure.
Years of pain,
Enduring strife,
Decaying our bodies,
Destroying our lives.
The treatment……
Drink eight glasses of smiles,
Each and every day.
Eat plenty of laughter,
Come what may!
Begin therapy sessions,
With a certified “LOVEOLOGIST”.
And say farewell
To your Oncologist!
Picture in your mind,
Your body healed,
Your illness devoured
By the joy you feel!
Take long soothing baths,
In light and love,
It will wash away life’s pain
From high above!
Each and every day
Take your soul for a walk,
Share each other’s secrets,
Laugh and talk.
Each and every night,
Hug as often as needed,
Hold the one you love,
As the patient is treated!
Avoid all toxins,
Life’s high fat stresses.
Replace with high quantities
Of love and caresses!
At least 3 times a day,
Giggle until you pee,
Your heart will radiate,
Your soul will be free.
Health is not in a pill,
It’s how you live your life,
Begin today,
Laugh away your strife!
Stress, a carcinogen,
Laugh it away,
Seek out love and happiness
In each new day!
Each of us alone,
Has the power to heal,
Wash away the stress,
Pure joy you’ll feel!
Wash away your past,
Dismiss your pain,
Live for today,
Joy and health remain!
Sickness in the past,
In joy, now health,
Our greatest treasure,
Our only wealth!
Leslie Cottle
July 28, 2007 – 1:00 am
Copyright 2008
Inspired by a health scare and a new found appreciation for living each day to the fullest and avoiding stress, the biggest killer known to mankind!!! So I smile, no more frowns!!
I am here, happy and so fortunate!! And one more thing….love is the answer!! Feel it, be it, know it, own it, cherish it, fight for it, love it…never let it go!! OXOXOXOOXOXO
Dr. Leslie
Practicing Loveologist
P.S. This was written before I actually got properly diagnosed when I was celebrating being healthy, then came more tests and the final outcome being Systemic Mastocytosis but the words I wrote still ring true!! Everyday is a blessing and a new opportunity to live a great life filled with love and happiness. And the days that are just unbearable, hopefully we will have a hand to hold or a shoulder to cry on or just a soothing voice to reassure us, everyone needs that from time to time.
Love and healing light to all!
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