6 months

Today, November 1, 2009, marks 6 months since June 1, 2009 that Naomi passed away. The holidays are around the corner, Thanksgiving & Christmas. What the heck am I going to do? I am thankful that I had my precious girly and was given the little time that I did have her to hold her and to love her and to be a mommy to her, to be a mommy. I was able to change her tiny tiny diapers, take her temperature. I remember it all. Her perfect little hands and fingers and toes, and adorable daddy like nose. And her beautiful eyes. Oh how would she look now? I dont know what to do with myself still. I wish I can say things are "better". No im still "standing" waiting to be pushed down and never being able to stand back up again. I just know its goingto happen. I miss her terribly, this is the worst heartache any mother can possibly go through. Its the absolute worst pain in my entire 22 years of living put together. I miss you Naomi Hope Marish. Mommy loves you dearly. 2 days ago I left 2 purple ballons (March of Dimes prematurity color) into the sky at night with Daddy actually, and sent them off in memory of my precious Naomi. I miss you little girl, I miss you so so much.