Recently had my first baby girl Mia on October 14th 2009. She was born only at 23 weeks and 5 days....the whole journey has been complicated. I went to see my OB for a routine check up and he told me that I had to go to the hospital and check myself in bacause I have bulging membranes. I had no idea what I was happening. After a week on bed rest in the hospital my water broke and I had an emergency c-section. The doctors wanted me to terminate the pregnancy because of the survival rate but I thought otherwise. It's been 7 week today that my baby is here and she is having some complications. They started feeding her on the 2nd week and she has symptoms of NEC for the past month her belly is big, swollen and purplish. Her heart has a huge PDA and she has a brain bleed with hydrocephilus....so they want me to pull her plug. The Dr. said she is to delicate to have any surgeries and since she is in the oscillator ventilator it makes it harder for her to have any surgery. I can't see myself pulling off her ventilation plug...she hears me when I talk to her she looks for me, she smiles when I make a goo goo sound to her and she moves around a lot. How can I kill her? I think the Dr. should operate on her and if she does not make it then that is a different story....am I wrong?