Both of my little ones have been fighting a cold on and off for about a month. They both seemed to be on the mend, and then started getting congested again. On Thursday evening Ethan was really coughing and by the middle of the night his breathing was very retracted and he was coughing a lot plus breathing really shallow. I took him to the ER where he was put on an o2 monitor, satting around 87-90%. They did nebs on him right away, his breathing improved, sats went right up, and he became himself again within minutes. It was definitely the right decision, but the whole experience has been awful!
They did blood work to check white blood cell count (normal) x-rays to check for pneumonia, etc (clear lungs), tested right there for RSV and Influenza (negative for both), looked in his ears, no infection (more about that in a minute. . .). Imagine my shock and dismay when they decided to admit him, and told me that even though per the test and his appearance/symptoms he does not have the flu they were admitting him and treating him as though he does. They started iv fluids (he had been and continues to be drinking/eating fine), two types of nebs (no problem there, I know he needs them) i.v. steroids, Tamiflu (pedi said he wasn't willing to risk not giving it - okay. . .maybe. . .I'm still NOT thrilled), and i.v. antibiotics. That, I am pissed about! One doctor looks in his ears and says "no infection". 15 minutes later a different doctor looks in his ears says "double ear infection, start iv antibiotics. Okay, which of these idiots should not have a job, for one, and secondly, if he DOES have an infection it is so mild the first doctor missed it and strong i.v. antibiotics seems like major overkill!
I am really disgusted with all of this. The tests they do are horrible too. Blood draw, nasal swab (more like a brain swab as far up as they go) x-rays (for babies/toddlers they shove them in a container that is about the size of a 2 liter bottle - seems that way - that clamps against their sides, presses their faces into the front of it, and pins their arms up above their heads. Scary scary scary for these little ones.), then starting the i.v. I felt that if they made my baby cry one more time I was going to punch somebody.
I also feel like I have either somehow failed or have been disillusioned about my ability to keep them well.
We have a nanny and have stopped taking the kids out and about for the winter. They eat well - my kids will eat just about every veggie, including ones like broccoli and spinach! - and they get a multivitamin, fish oil, and probiotics, plus extra vitamin D. We keep all of our well baby appointments (just had one the Monday before all this happened, ironically) and also see a homeopath with them and use homeopathic remedies to treat symptoms whenever something comes up. Sigh. . .so this just upsets me that I try so hard to do everything right now I've still got one baby in the hospital and the other one sick at home on nebs and oral steroids.
Just sick of trying so hard and feeling like it did absolutely no good. And I just want my little boy back home. I was in the hospital for so long before I had them, and it was 4 months after they were born before we had both of them at home. The last place I ever wanted to be with either of them ever again was back in a hospital.
I am sorry for the long post. . .just had a lot to get out.




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