The innocent

Years ago I was faced with a question when I was 5 months pregnant with my daughter. The Doctor said your child is deformed, she has an open spine it didn't close and she could have down syndrome or turners syndrome.. you should abort this child immediately you have a healthy son. Your miscarrying its your only option. I sat and stared at this man and he said listen to me, If she lives you will have a life filled with stress and no rest you may have to institutionalize the child. I still sat and stared at him... I didn't have to think about it .. I can't do it. I was adult enough to get pregnant and I am adult enough to deal with the outcome. Its a life so innocent, I have no right to decide if it lives or dies.. what will be will be. My whole pregnancy I had teams of experts and a room filled with specialists when the moment came. Labor was horrible... Then the moment she arrived there were gasps nurses dropped to their knees.. tears rolled down the Doctors cheeks and it seemed like hours those few seconds before they Doctor said choked up.. She is perfect she has all her fingers all her toes she is totally healthy and very BIG...lol almost 10lbs 23 inches long... The wonder of it all left me with such a respect for life no matter what. Matthes birth a couple years later the premature birth the month in NICU the years of wonder if he would be ok,...the birth of two more son's healthy so wonderful ... The accident Matt suffered.. I never have thought for a moment it is to much to handle or bear .. I get tired but its my child.. I would give my life for his. If they could transplant spinal cords I would give mine.

The innocent... those who can't help the situation they are in deserve that kind of love that kind of compassion and devotion in their lives. It blows my mind what I am dealing with on Matthews bus. His bus driver is amazing she is a wonderful person and her helper too is just a blessing. They have a child on the bus who is in a power chair who has breathing issues and is very very sick with this flu right now. The parents won't take their child to the doctor they say they cant afford it which I know is not true because this child if they have no money would have medicaid. They are putting this child on the bus to go to school and not keeping them home to heal.. people are worried teachers and aids this childs color isn't good and they are burning up with fever so much it soaks the chair. They have talked to the parents they have made a report but nothing is getting done and in the mean while the child is infecting other kids and suffering... HOW can a parent be so cruel? This innocent child is being neglected. DCF was supose to have been contacted but in Florida its a joke. I spoke with Risk management today and they said something will be done. In the mean while my guts just turn thinking how this child must be treated at home.
so sad.