A New Beginning

It has been 3 years since I became paralyzed and there have been many changes in my life. In the attempts to deal with the sense of loss by the abject reality bestowed upon me by life, I have embarked an endless journey of reflection necessitated by the need to put things in their proper context. Since becoming paralyzed my life it seems has been devoid of happiness or perceived meaning. I do believe this can be said of many people who are confronted with a life changing event.

Initially subsequent to a life changing event, there is a feeling of hopelessness regarding whether life will ever hold meaning again. This feeling can be temporary or it can linger for the remaining years of a person's life. So the reflection helps a person determine based on his/her interpretation of reality what steps can be taken in order to maximize gratification and meaning in the present and future. It is not easy.

The reality is what it is. I am never going to walk again. I have to deal with that and all the wishing, exercise or reflection isn't going to change anything. I have to face that and deal accordingly. I am never going to have the body of a Greek God again. (It has been said that people in situations that are life changing are sometimes delusional. Those poor bastards)

Always being one who had brilliant wit usually keeping myself in stitches I have been lamenting regarding the sense of loss to the ladies of the world. As stated before Mikey's Mikey has gone AWOL. But in a moment of reflection it hit me with the force of a kick to my numb nuts. Not only was this the answer regarding the loss to the ladies of the world, but would be a new career for Mikey and new meaning for Mikey's Mikey.

The losing of sexuality is perhaps the most detrimental consequence of paralysis. My mind is still horny as hell. I mean I was never a cad, but what can I say? Nothing more other than the aforementioned reflection's realization is the answer. It is so simple in that I could satisfy 2 needs. In the 80's there was a Saturday Night Live skit with Dana Carvey and Kevin Nealon called Hans and Franz "We Want To Pump You Up" To paraphrase I am going to pump it up. Just think, I could be the man that every woman fantasizes about. Not only that, this could be a new career. I could be a Rap Music star. My new name would be Pump Daddy Super Schlong. The first CD would be titled Whose Ya Daddy. Some of the songs would be: Whose Ya Daddy, I'm Ya Daddy, Is That You Daddy, Oh Daddy and a sure million seller Ur Not My Daddy, Daddy.

Three years!!!!

Be strong

PD