I had my transvaginal ultrasound today. The transducer looked remarkably similar to a curling iron.
I find myself almost paralyzed by fear tonight due to some things the ultrasound tech said. She also took a lot of pictures, which worried me. In the midst of taking all these pictures that felt excessive to me, she said, "What did your doctor say about the exam yesterday?" I told her she said it was normal. She then said, "Did she do any type of internal study?" I said, "Why? Do you see something?" Knowing full well that she was not allowed to tell me (why did she start the discussion in the first place, then?!)
She quickly backtracked and said, "Oh, I was just curious. I am not allowed to say anything. Sorry." I was so upset and terrified by her comments that when I got up to leave, my knees were shaking.
But she was not done with me yet. On the way out, she asked, "Did you come with anyone?" I said no. She gave me a super fake smile and said, "OK, you can go out that way then."
I shook all the way over on my walk to the gyn's office. I gave the receptionist a note that I felt something was wrong with my ultrasound and I needed to talk to someone and asked her to hand it to the doctor's assistant.
The doctor's assistant came out in a few minutes. She was very compassionate with me, but said that I have to wait until the radiologist reads the ultrasound. I know that the doctor had the pictures already in the computer, because I asked the ultrasound tech how long did it take to get them.
I was hoping the doc would be willing to talk to me but I guess I have to wait. I'm so scared.