I was try to describe how a cancer diagnosis feels to help my family understand the internal struggle and the best analogy so far is cancer is like a cloud. The cloud is always there even when you cant see it. Somedays its bright and sunny but its still exisits. Other days it may be dark, stormy, or pouring rain. No matter what the cloud still hovers over your head ever reminding you of the cancer. It never goes away. My ostomy is a constant reminder right now its still healing so there is a slight discomfort. Your life that you once had still exists but you look at things so differently thru the cloud that is cancer. You appreciate the sunny days, pray thru the stormy days and allow the rain to cleanse you.