Hi everyone: I finally got the diarrhea/flow thing figured out, Imodium bothered my stomach, the lomotil, is milder and seem to not bother me at all. I am now 12.5 weeks post surgery, shouldn't all this feeling so damn sad, crying (not as much, tell today) all I wanted to do today is lay around feeling sad. I am so ready to be done with all of this, I don't want to do any of it any more! I am not very happy with my "new normal", I swear I lost that tuff Montana, funny, hardworking, sassy smartass girl I've known for 53 years with my colon! Who is this? Oh! And by the way, why is all my hair falling out!!!!!!!! I am done, I don't want to do any of this any more, I cry, I hurt (not as bad) I worry, I cry, I want this divorce over, I really want me back. I am so damn sad, will I ever be happy again? Is this normal? My friend just said it is better than dead? Really? I suppose It is just a bad day! Or I need a shrink?