To all my Ostomate Family; I continually read how everyone after a few months of having an ileostomy are more or less back to normal with eating, life and all. I am almost two years since my initial surgery and still unable to eat so many foods, having problems with my pouches, no energy and i could go on and on. Have had repair on my stoma since it does not want to flip properly and always relapes to the skin, Dr doesn't think there is anything else he can do, already have had 8 surgeries in two years due to anal/rectal cancer etc. I just seemed so darn deplressed that I can not do everything that I use to do, I live alone and have fantastic friends and co workers but always keep a smile on my face so they don't really know how depressed I am. Seems like I just am tired of the fight My family comes and visits and much as they can but they all have lifes of their own. And I am so hard headed and don't like the idea of having to depend on people since I have been so independent for so long. Thanks for letting me vent I know this is one place that I can say how I really feel. Thanks again and God Bless everyone.