I figured out I am gonna die anyway and I am sick and tired of sitting at home waiting for this to happen. And I am sick and tired of my entire day being spent on my medical stuff.
I have been afraid to get out there.. again. It seems that for the past year every time I try to work on go to school or anything I find myself very ill again and/or in the hospital. This has caused me to cower and sit at home and wait...
I am not doing this any longer. I don't mind so much being sick, I have been sick for years and I made my peace with that. So I am sick.. But I don't have to make my illness my LIFE!! I should be able to leave it at home and work as much as I want.. go to school if I want.. etc. This is what I am going to do..
I will die anyway, right??
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