Feeling alone

I'm really frustrated tonight. It is Saturday night & my friends all have plans, & I'm home. Yes, I feel very selfish in saying this, but it has been over a year since I've really enjoyed a social life & at 24 I'm having a hard time accepting that.
I went out to dinner with my Grandparents tonight (which is a rarity, I feel safer eating at home with the unknowns eating brings to my life). After 1/2 a roll & a very small piece of pizza, I was in the bathroom vomitting. This did not help my cracked rib (which was caused from frequent vomitting).
I had an upper GI test with barium on Thursday & it did not show another obstruction, which I am grateful for. BUT, that leaves us with the question of why am I not keeping food down? The doc mentioned something about trying Domeperidone, but I'm worried about the side effects. Reglan literally put me in bed from its nasty side effects. What happens if I cannot tolerate Domperidone?

I want to go to medical school--my health keeps delaying me. I'm doing my best to stay positive, but it is frustrating. My friends are great--but I know they don't quite understand why I'm not up & about & being myself...I'm struggling right now with a lack of energy & its hard on me & all those around me. Its a lonely feeling. I applied to start my Masters in Public Health this Fall at the local medical school so that at least I can be moving somewhat forward, but I'm scared my energy will not allow me.

I had a terrible experience with my j-tube and I am terrified of it...but at this point, it almost seems like a relief if they make me have it again. At least I wouldn't be vomitting & I could go out & about without feeling like a hinderance on everyone!

Sorry for venting...I'm just hoping to find someone who truly understands & isn't just saying so to make me feel better. I cannot wait until my doc appointment on the 29th--we really need a game plan here.
I weighed myself yesterday, I'm down to 99.8 pounds...