Return of abnormal paps/back again :(

Hi again, everyone. Just looking for some info/advice/thoughts I may have missed. I have not done as much hpv research in the last few months as before.

Recap: hx of abnormal paps/hrhpv+ x 3 years. One year ago, I had laser ablation for several CIN spots extending into the canal. Since then, I've not had any colposcopies but I've had two negative paps, both accompanied by negative hpv tests.

However, at my last follow up 3 weeks ago (one year mark), upon doing the pap, the ARNP noted that my os was "extremely red and swollen looking" and I had been experiencing some mild vaginal discomfort and pelvic pain. The next day, I had moderate to severe pelvic pain and a ton of (sorry for the graphic and gross description) THICK green discharge. I won't even describe the smell but it rivaled the smell when I was healing from laser.

I was back in the gyn's office again as an emergency so I couldn't see my regular. Cultures came back negative for other STDs and trich didn't seem likely given negative wet mounts and the fact it's never been picked up in my myriad paps over the last 3 years, so I didn't take the 3 day course of Flagyl. Thick green discharge cleared up shortly thereafter, followed by period, then...blue discharge. Yes, you read that right - blue strings, like threads or fibers. And I'm SURE it's cervico-vaginal.

Sure enough, the most recent pap was abnormal again (ASCUS), though the hpv was negative. I'm still waiting for a paper copy of the results to verify for myself, because I don't think I will ever trust a health care practitioner again (among other issues I have had with doctors, my former ob/gyn was just arrested and facing charges relating to his practice).

Do you all think I can trust the negative hpv? Given my history, my gut tells me that this ASCUS is hpv and that the only reason I tested negative is b/c it was below 5000 copies of hpv dna (you can have up to 5000 copies and still test negative). As well, if the ASCUS had been due to something other than hpv, the path report would have noted so under other findings. Maybe they did and the nurse didn't leave that part on my voicemail.

On a "happier" note, I am less freaked out. But I do feel very defeated. I'm 29 and unmarried and desperately (I hate using that word) want children one day. I'm single. I wonder if this will be my life. I have another issue that causes major problems, ghsv2, which I KNOW is responsible for these flares of hpv/abnormal results. I may not be able to prove it empirically, but I KNOW my body.

I have not had sex for about 18 months, since well before my laser, so this is absolutely 100% not a new infection.

Any thoughts? Sorry for the length. I'm so tired of this. Thanks v. much for letting me vent.