So I guess I'm looking for support and advice ...
I'm 30 and married for 9 years. I had an abnormal pap in July and then LEEP about 3 weeks ago. I went in for my follow up after the LEEP on Tues. Dr told me the LEEP came back low/moderate and had one small unclear margin but she "burned" way past the margin so I she thinks she got it all. OK, great I'm thinking ...we'll do the follow ups every 3 mo and everything will be fine. But then the Dr continues ...
She apparently noticed a small Condyloma acuminatum on my perianal area ... aka wart ... and had it tested as well. My heart just about leap out of my body. I don't know for some reason the HVP that causes cervical dysplasia didn't seem so dirty and gross and the wart causing kind. I know its still HPV but I just feel awful. And then she asked about "other types" of intercourse. I knew where she was going with this and so I answered honestly that yes my husband and I had tried anal a few times. Well then Dr becomes really concerned and strongly suggestest I see a rectal specialist to be checked in that area. By this point I'm crying and she keeps telling me "you're such a nice girl, this happens to nice girls too". She was reassuring but it all seems so overwelming. Like why is this happening to me ... to us. This all really doesn't bother my husband. I am mortified and feel dirty. He's really supportive and the gross factor doesn't bother him. I'm taking all the vitamins and the Indole-3-carbinol, etc. I've learned a lot from reading this board. I have an appt with the rectal Dr in a couple weeks ... which the thought of that terrifies me too. Uggg, just so much to stress over.
Any words of wisdom, advice, etc? I guess it just feels good to vent.
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New here ... LEEP and now more to deal with
- By pink_girl
- Posted September 4, 2009 at 12:12 pm · 5 replies
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- By mickietucs
- Posted September 4, 2009 at 2:07 pm
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Pink Girl - So sorry you're having a "bunch of things" thrown at you at once when you thought you'd go in and get the all-clear signal after you LEEP. I know it's a lot to deal with. But I must say you have to have a wonderful GYN because so many of us are dealing with doctors who don't want to do ANYTHING about an anal pap and many with HPV are worried about that area as well - and we can't find places to go to get tested. I know you'd rather not go to another doctor for more tests but it's great you're being pro-active. Hang in there --- continue to get support from your husband and all the folks on this site are wonderful and you can share and vent all you want! Please post again after you go to the other doctor --- wish I could find one in my area -- Best to you -
- By pink_girl
- Posted September 4, 2009 at 3:43 pm
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Hi ... yes, I know my GYN is great. She actually was going to do an anal pap but then when I said I had anal sex before she strongly recomended I actually have anoscopy to be sure they is nothing there. I'm kicking myself for that ... here I am thinking I'm keeping the marriage adveturous, trying new things, etc and it has possibly put me at risk. I mean we were married with no STDs (or so I thought b4 this HPV decided to come out of hiding). The waiting is the hard part and thinking of the worst case. The internet is a blessing and a curse. It great for educating outselves but its also awful because you read all of the really bad outcomes. I'm really trying not to obsess about it but its so hard.
- By corellin
- Posted September 4, 2009 at 7:08 pm
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hi pink_girl -- the good news is that you could have a great outcome, due to an educated and pro-active GYN.
And, isn't it kind of funny the way men just don't seem to react to these sorts of things the way we women do? It means we get a bit less emotional support, but, in a way, it's nice because it would be worse if they were freaking out also.
Good luck to you!
- By tam1
- Posted September 4, 2009 at 7:48 pm
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pink_girl - i'm know your reaction to this is normal, but I think you should be kind to yourself and give yourself a break.
what in the world did she mean by 'your a nice girl, this happens to nice girls too?' to me that's code for 'as a doctor i have an underlying stigma against patients with hpv.' she needs to clamp it with statements like that if she is a doctor. or did i misread her intentions as you obviously like her.
- By pink_girl
- Posted September 5, 2009 at 9:32 am
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Thanks for the replies. I'll update after I see the other Dr.
Tam1 ... I think the Dr was just trying to comfort me. It was me who was freaking out and misinformed about HPV. But then I think most people are until they are diagnosed.
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