First, I am 40 years old turning 41 years old here in a month or so. I was diagnosis with PCOS when I was 19 years old and sexually active w/ intercourse at the age of 15 years old. I do come from a child molestation environment, me being the victim from age 7 to 16. I have had 5 to 6 boyfriends and husbands in my life time, and I have been with my current husband for nearly 20 years. Though we have tried we have not been able to bear children naturally.
This last year has been a struggle for me. I seemed to have an infection or virus of some type. In March a UTI, in April the spring virus bug, May it was shingles, June the flu (possibly h1n1) with bronchitis complications, and then developed hip bursitis and what may have been blood sepsis (SIRS) from 10 abscess teeth (which accounts for low immune system, heart rate, loss of sensation everywhere and brain fog) - the dentist pulled 14 teeth all at once two weeks ago - in September. Also in September, two weeks ago to be precise, my PAP smear turned out really bad and now going through all the GYN stuff. My family Doc is still alarmed quite a bit about my 5% sudden loose in body weight yet is giving the dental procedure with heavy antibiotics a chance to work incase the weight loose is do to the sepsis
PAP smear HPV Positive - high risk, CIN 2/3 yet waiting on the biopsy done today to get a more accurate reading. My GYN took a look, of course, and told me I would need to return in 2 weeks for a LEEP and then after this discuss a hysterectomy even before knowing how the biopsy turns out. So can only guess it BAD, real BAD and she wants to nip it in the bud now.
It has been an emotional strain to say the least. I work three part-time jobs to keep up with the bills plus needing to fit in doctor appnt. I talk with my co-workers/friends, my sister and my mother yet of course none of them have been hit this hard with physical problems nor had HPV. I have always been a little sensitive to not being able to have children, its a maternal thing, like not being able to hold a newborn or desiring to a baby shower. I have always allowed that glimmer of hope that one day a miracle could happen and I would get pregnant. But today that glimmer has become even smaller... trying to come to terms that with a hysterectomy that the glimmer will be put out. I keep telling myself God has a purpose for this and I was meant to be or do something else. It IS HARD though...
I am emotionally drained as much as my body seems to be. I normally do not ask for prayers, since they are freely given without request, but I certainly can use some.
Sorry for making this lengthly and for any grammar or spelling errors.
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Multiple health problems now HPV High-risk
- By kelley-ia
- Posted October 15, 2009 at 12:27 am · 5 replies
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- By BeccaSL
- Posted October 15, 2009 at 1:13 pm
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Just want you to know I just prayed and will be praying for you. I'm so sorry that is just crappy- so much stuff to deal with. But you are right there is always a reason things happen.
- By jamiegirl
- Posted October 15, 2009 at 4:18 pm
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My thoughts and good wishes are with you...
- By kelbel09
- Posted October 15, 2009 at 9:13 pm
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hey kelley,
Your right talking with go is free :) I also just said a prayer for u and will continue to. I hope things get better and maybe when you re-coop from your health ( if u end up a hysto) Have you thught about adopting a newborn? maybe that is gods calling for u?? There are so many abuse neglected children all over this country that could use a strong loving parent like you :) Just something to think about --( even with adoption all those things u have missed can happen like a baby shower, crib and nursery)
Just a thought
Take care god bless
- By alfawolfet
- Posted October 25, 2009 at 4:30 pm
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Hello Kelley,
I to was told that i have high risk HPV five months ago. I have 16 and 18 which are the high risk cancer. I am 32 years old and like your self I have only had 5 sex partners in my life time and have been married for 6 years. For the last month and a half I have had many health problems. I have been in the hospital and to my doctor many times and have many test ran on me. There are still unsure as to what is going on with me. I have a appointment with my OBGYN this week. I have one son who is 16 years old and I have not been able to get pregnant since I had him. When I called my OBGYN and told them my health problems they said it could be the HPV that is causing them. As of right now and for over a month I have had a bladder infection, constipation, swollen and tender breast, and extreme stomach pain and swelling. I took a blood pregnancy test and it came up negative. They want me to test again in 10 days. But like your self I gave up on ever getting pregnant. I advice that you get a second opinion about having a hysterectomy. I was told my a doctor when I was 22 years old that I had to have one before they even got my test results back, as you can imagine I was a mess, I just couldn't believe it. When I got a second opinion I was told that there was no reason for one. I am sorry that you are experiencing all these problems and I do understand and I know how scarring it all is and I will keep you in my prayers.
- By Shocked
- Posted October 25, 2009 at 10:09 pm
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Dear Kelley,
Thank the good Lord for this website. We are all basically floating in the same boat and we have each other to lean on. You have endured so much in your life time. If nothing else it has taught you how to be strong. I just know that God will see you through all of this but in His time. I have said a prayer for you and I will continue to do so. Keep writing as you feel a need to. Blessings!
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