I am 38 years old and in stupidity haven't gone for a pap for 5 years. Prior to the last 5 years, I went religiously and never had an abnormal result. Not to make excuses but I have 3 children (my little sunshines) and life in the last 5 years has been really financially difficult (mostly without insurance). Unfortunately, I put myself last and now it has come back to haunt me. Well, my pap came back abnormal and my docter said to call the office to schedule a biopsy.
I went for a colposcopy & biopsy this past Friday and she informed me that my pap results came back severe level (not sure if this means severe dysplasia or cancer results???). She told me that worst case scenario is a hysterectomy with radiation and chemotherapy. She also said that I should prepare myself for the worst. I am jumping out of my skin.
Our conversation is starting to cloud over in my head, but I believe she said that she did not visibly see the cancer during the colposcopy (however, she did see the abnormal cells). My doctor took 3 pieces from me for biopsy which I will get the results this Monday.
I am soooo scared that I will not be here for my children and all I can think about is the worst case scenario (as she has instructed me to prepare for). Only my worst case scenario's playing in my head are far worse than hers. I fear that since it has been 5 years since I had a pap test, that this could have spread to other organs in my body. They say that cervical dysplasia can take 10 to 20 years to turn to cervical cancer, however everyone's stories that I have been reading seem to happen so much faster.
I wish I had been faithful with my paps, it seems so insignificant that the finances were difficult in the past 5 years now. Hard lesson learned is that I am no good to anyone around me (especially my children) if I am not taking care of myself. I also feel really bad for my husband because he feels guilty that we didn't have insurance.
I am not really scared of the surgeries or treatments (I know I can be strong enough to do this) as all you beautiful strong women have been. It's the thought of leaving my children and family that has me going crazy!!! If anyone else has a similar situation, I would love to hear from you.