I know we all have bad days and need to vent, this is a bad day! I haven't been feeling well with my GP, I have been really nauseated and started to vomit again. Nothing like I was before my pacer surgery but just a few times.
Of course I got sick the night before my first exam in my summer class. I have been trying to convince myself that I am well enough to go back to school so I could get into nursing school for the spring. Anyway, I started vomiting early last night and continued all night. I cried so much that I gave myself one of my famous migraines to top things off. I tried to go to class to take my test even though I felt like dirt and couldn't think because my head was pounding so bad, and to no surprise...I started vomiting at school and my teacher wouldn't let me make up the test! You would think he might show a girl in tears and smelling of vomit a bit of compassion.
So now I had to drop the class because a zero would kill my average. I also have to miss a class to go to my oncologist (which I can't miss or re schedule), which was going to be another missed test that he wouldn't let me take.
I feel like a total failure!!
I am soo tired of being sick that it hurts. And the more I cry the worse my migraine gets.
I am now questioning if I can even do this...are my dreams of becoming a nurse shot?
Why can't we just be normal and healthy? I would kill to be healthy again, I miss the old me. I am almost forgetting what it was like to be healthy.
I am sorry to vent, but I can't talk to anyone else about this-I am so alone.
Alicia