I finally realized this morning that I an hyper empathic. I broke down the other day and hurt myself and was generally in a very dark place and I figured it was just because things finally just became too much. But I finally realized that the trigger was actually a close friend of mine describing how much he still loved his ex and how much it hurt to not be able to be with her and how he can't move on. Thats what killed me inside. This is a problem I've had for a very long time and just never knew it. I don't know how to hear others problems without feeling everything they feel. And i feel as though it's slowly killing me.
I am in desperate need of help. I never knew there was such a thing as too much empathy, but I know how I feel right now and I am telling you there is such a thing. But I am terrified to try to get help. I can't tell anyone in my life about this. I can't talk to my friends or my therapist or my psychiatrist. And I can't go to the psych ward.
I just know that no one will take me seriously. And why should they? It sounds crazy. But I desperately need my brain to stop working this way.