I'm tired off it all. It seems like it will never get better. Pain always pain. I have NO support from my family and I don't have any friends out here in the north. When I ask for help, the response is as cold as the temperature -31 C. Yes I often feel like letting go. Living with an ileostomy is very tough , I'm often sick and always in pain. I can't take pain medication cause I'm allergic to all of them(Narcotics that is). My family tells me to stop complaining because other people are worst off than I am. Can't work so no money coming in and no insurance. I'm just fed up.
Why go on living this life if it gets only worst every day. I wish the doctors
would have told me of how expensive it is to wear an ostomy bag , I would have decline the operation and just die in pain and alone. Now the doctors tell me I have Crohn's ; that's new to me. Was told that I would no longer have pain and be sick but instead I get sicker. Wish I had someone to talk to, to cry with. Can't do it here, have to be alone to cry. Men don't cry or complain, so I'm being told. I wish I had some guy to talk to about male stuff. No male doctors here and psychological help takes more than a year to get. Maybe in an other life. Maybe It's my punishment for being gay, like the priest said. I guest he was right, hell is waiting for me, may as well go and meet my destiny.
Help. My name is Sylvain and I live in Canada.