This is my first time posting on this forum, or even any place like this, so I'm a little bit nervous. But I could really use some advice.
So I'm very busy this semester at school and I've had the usual stress related to being busy. But lately, I've been feeling more than that. I get upset over small things easily. And even more recently, I feel like I'm very sad, for little or no reason, all the time. I'm mostly okay if I'm actively engaged in something, like reading or talking; when I am engaged, I even laugh and smile. But the second I'm not, I just feel so down. I usually care a lot about my grades and worry about getting all my work done. But now, I know I have plenty of work to worry about, I just don't really care about my grades any more. I can't motivate myself to work. I want to just curl up in a corner, cry myself to sleep, and never wake up.
I've started seeing a therapist and today I told her how I felt. She said I probably have depression and wants to discuss on Monday whether I would like to pursue medication. I don't know how I feel about this. Any advice?
On another note, since my meeting with her, I've begun to doubt that I have depression. I'm convincing myself that I'm not actually sad ALL the time and I don't have all of the symptoms. I do this a lot; whenever I feel unwell, as soon as I tell someone that I think I need help, I immediately start to second guess myself and convince myself that I'm just imagining it all. Is this normal? Am I just imagining things or might I actually have depression? Do other people often talk themselves out of getting help? Any advice anyone has would be very much appreciated.