Oh uh another sleepless night, I almost hate to go to sleep because I know in the morning at 3am I will awake in pain, I keep my breakthru pain meds next to me and my cain and a drink, just for this reason. Its only getting worse too. I cant even take a step for about 10minutes but when you gotta go, well you know.So i place my feet on the floor at least that is what other people call it I will call it the glass hell cause thats what it feels like to me and them I try to put pressure on my right leg and then left only to feel as if I am going to fall flat on my face. Which i have done, but today I manage to make it to the bathroom. Then back to the bed time for meds, then again in 45 to an hour i might be able to hobble to the bathroom and unlock the door for my grandbabies whom I help watch during the day. Whew! all that work and its not even 7am yet and i am already tired. My legs at this point are working somewhat so I try to muddle through what I can.At this point anyone that knows pain meds know its wearing off fast so I try and cry until 9am and then more medication,daily stuff and more pain meds.. I get sick of feeling this way, being sick, in pain, tired and sad, it all feeds on you and wears you down..I love my grandbabies and if it wasnt for my kids and them I dont know what Ild do.I keep telling myself you can beat this,so why do I feel as if I am the one getting BEAT!