Fear...anger...sadness...tears...prayers...confusion

I feel like we are on a roller coaster ride of emotions...I'm exhausted with the fighting for whats right...scared to death of what might happen...and hanging on to what seems like threads of hope....Lord I can't imagine what my Angel Emmy feels like...I try so hard for her not to know the intensity of my fears...I cry a lot at nite and pray my heart out...I have plan A to Z and not sure which will work...I look at my beautiful child and Thank the Lord for her and then question why she has to deal with all this sickness and crap at school...What is best Lord...what do I do to honor you Lord through Emmy...how do I instill Faith, peace, love and happiness in such craziness....sometimes as i snuggle Em I imagine we are cuddled up in the Lords hands and everything is fine...I try not to tell her to much...just what I think she needs to know...but she asks alot why am I sick all the time?...I struggle with what to say....We forever tell each other how much we love one another...the feeling in my chest of fear and heartbreak is incredible....I can't imagine how our children feel...God love them all!!!!! I feel like an angry lion sometimes and have to try not to go to unnecessary battle...I get angry at people why don't try to understand her needs...Its just crazy so much unknown...lets try this lets try that...I just want someone to fix things...that will be me I guess...can't shed tears for long there is to much to take care of....time to totally be thankful for...time to savior every second...time to love and be happy...we have to enjoy each other...we have to keep our faith and hope...we have to pray for cures and peace...we will stick together.....Snowflake's are of natures most fragile things...but look at what can happen when they stick together!!!!!! Through Faith I pray much Love, peace and happiness to all of you!!!!!!!!! Melissa