I know I haven't posted much, but I have read many many stories. Many of them I found to be encouraging. My dad was dx with stage IV adenocarcinoma of the lung with mets in June of 2006. He was feeling much better lately. He has beat the "medical odds" so often. We even had good news about him being a candidate for cyberknife. Three days after we went to the cyberknife consult he was hospitalized into the ICU. He was in septic shock due to pneumonia. Needless to say, he did not pull out of it. He passed away on Aug 20. It was just 3 days after he was admitted.
It has been harder than I expected to deal with his passing. I think it may be because there are questions I have that the drs can't answer. I don't know if it's because there's really no right answer or if it's to try and spare my feelings.
I have tried & tried to find an answer to how long he could have had sepsis? Are there any signs I could have missed? He was treated for pneumonia in mid-July...could it have been still lingering? With a lung CA patient, is it common protocol to not follow up with a chest xray after treatment? I don't know. If anyone could help shed some light on this it will be greatly appreciated. When I tried to ask the dr, I just kept getting the same answer...I am sorry, Tracey, we did all we could do for you dad. I understand and believe that. I am not looking to try to find an error on their part. I have others saying...atleast he's not suffering...I understand that too & I never ever wanted him to. It's just so hard to absorb, knowing he was feeling so good just days prior. Thank God, he was never bed ridden and walked unassisted, even out to the ambulance Monday morning(3 days before passing). I think I just need some answers to help me begin to heal from such a great loss. I don't know how to begin healing. I never knew it was possible to hurt so bad.
I have found this site to be so helpful and very informative. I hope I am not out of line by asking these questions, but I just don't know where else to turn. Thanks a bunch!