New to Inspire

Hi All
I'm new to posting anything on this site, but have read a lot of your inspiring posting. I really love reading them because they have helped me. But, tonite I think i need a pitty party for me. Or just need help coping with the strest of cancer. So, Here is my story. It strarts 4 + year ago. All was had a cold or something. Untill last year. Meet the man of my dream and was marred on June 21, 08 and on Monday June 23, 08 when to the doc for horness and the feeling I had a cold. Had a x-ray and was told I need to see a speacals on Wed of that week. Doc said "I'm 99.9% sure you have lung cancer." He was wright. I did at age 39. Beside being aroung smoking, farm chem, and asspest, no one can say how this came about because I am to young. And no one can tell me for sure how long or how little I will have to do chem. The frist round of chem was bad. Had to take off of work for 5.5 months. The Second round was not to bad and was able to work. But, this round is just as bad as the first. When to work as long as I could but, now they are trying to fire me with no other resond (sp) but, when I when on short-term insurance again. I feel sometime I feel I can't talk to my husband and sometime i can but, if any you know its hard with farmers in the fields. I can't alway talk to my family because of health on there side. I think I'm just having a bad day. So, to all who put commends on this websit THANK YOU you just don't know how much we with lung cancer appesiate(sp) it.
Love and thanks
Marten1