Hi Everyone:
I know there is a general rule about staying off the internet, or at the very least not putting much stock into what it says.
I tried really, really hard, I swear I did, not to look it up. But I couldn't take it anymore and finally googled it.
I was diagnosed a week ago with NSCLC Stage IIIB with malignant pleural effusion. The IIIB isn't so bad .... it's when it spreads to the pleura that you're completely screwed. So far none of my doctors have told me how grim the situation is. The information I found on the internet was hideous .... the statistics, the survival rates, etc. were all so bad. The prognosis is just terrible.
Up to this point, I have been feeling positive and hopeful and ready for a good fight. I've almost actually been in a good mood. Now I can't stop crying and just feel totally doomed and like I don't have a chance. I just feel so sad and hopeless now .... I don't want to die in a year or six months or a year and a half or whatever .... I am only 43 years old!!!
Please, somebody, anybody, please say something to help me pull it together ... maybe someone knows of some miracles cuz that sounds like it's the only thing that's gonna save me.
I just can't believe how devastated I feel. I didn't even feel this bad when they initially told me I had lung cancer.
Cheryl