Five months ago my Mom was diagnosed with extended small cell lung cancer, with metasticies in her liver, lymphnodes, and spine. She's 57-but you wouldn't guess it. She's beautiful. My best friend...and the reason the reason seasons change here in Ohio Valley. I won't describe how shocked and shaken we all were when we found out- if you're reading this, then it's a familiar feeling for you too.
"Inoperable. incurable. 18 months, with treatment," they said. To which I replied (and have often since) "My mom is not a statistic." Thus began a vigorous routine (among others) of chemo, radiation,visualization, flax lignens, essiac tea, etc. We've had incredible results and most of her scans come back with "Good news, it's shrinking." We're even to the point where it's stablized. And I'm so incredible grateful things are going so well. We've come so far. Yet as positive and optomistic as I generally am, and have been these past few months- I'm struggling.
Where are all the survival stories? Any at all? Any internet search engine when prompted "small cell lung cancer" will regurgitate back that survival of small cell cancer is slim to none beyond 18 months, and especially after 5 years. Responds very well innitially to chemo but will ultimately build tollerance.
It all sounds so bleak.....I'm not ready to let go or even begin considering it. I'm beginning to feel that even the wonderfully caring doctors and nurses are biding our time with routine and procedure. But that they ultimately believe they know the outcome.
I read a book called "My Beautiful Life" that strongly advocated a macrobiotic diet and acredited it with the main characters survival (without radiation or chemo). I'm wondering if we should try something similar. We've even integrated "miracle" herbal supplements into her diet. And there's talk of buying a water ionizer....but amid all these daily plans, routines and even successes, I'm losing hope. For some reason, it's becoming harder and harder to muster.
All that being said-does anyone have any to spare? Hope? Even just to last me the day? Insights, websites, a story? Anything that might reassure me that I'm not delusional for hoping. Or if I am-anything that will help me maintain my delusions for a while longer.
Thanks...thanks for making my day.




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