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Barney passed away

Bigbarn
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Greetings everyone,

That is the most surreal statement that I have ever made.

He died peacefully at home with his family and friends
on Monday June 15th at 3:40 PM.

Today is Fathers Day and our boys are having a very difficult day today.

Myself, I am stuck in this state of "limbo". Numb. Denial. Shock. Why can't I feel something?

I want to extend my deepest gratitude for all of the support that we both have received from each and everyone of you. I love all dearly and will continue to garner support from everyone here.

Peace to all,
Anita

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Marg

Anita,
I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what you are feeling or what you are supposed to feel. Don't worry, I'm sure the appropriate feelings will happen, what ever they are supposed to be. Just work on breathing in and out.

Marg

pattyp1

Oh, Anita,
I am so very, very sorry.....
the numbness is part of the process - you are just worn out and need to get some rest - and that takes a while - practicing breathing in and out is probably all you can handle right now - and that is plenty - unfortunately, there will be all the legalities and stuff to deal with also - I hate to say it, but being numb while you're dealing is not a bad thing

one other thought - no-one could have done as good as you did for Barney - you did yourself proud - and I am absolutely certain Barn is upstairs entertaining the angels with stories about how much you did for him and cared for him

now, go lay down, dear, and count ceiling tiles until you can do more - and let people take care of you

again, I am so so so sorry
hugs
Pat

peyz33

Oh Anita - I am so sorry to hear this about Barney - please know that we all here card for him and now care for you too - be strong and know that he is in a better place - at peace with no pain. I can't even imagine how hard Father's Day must be for you and your boys - you have my heartfelt sympthy.
Karen

Gazelle

Anita, I am so sorry to hear of Barney passing. Your loving care showed in each of your messages. Take one day at a time and lean on those close for support.

LTLCS

My Condolences.

Warm & Gentle Hugs,
Connie

patriciad

Anita
I am so very sorry for your loss. Barney was diagnosed just a day before my Billy and I do know how hard this road has been for the both of you. I know what a great caregiver you were to him and how much he must have appreciated it. It really never helped me to hear that Billy is in a better place because to me a better place would be right beside me right now-minus the cancer of course. I am sure that would be your wish too. I do believe that he is watching over you and your boys. Hang in there Anita-
Praying for you
Pat

MarionW

That numbness is a gift- I think- at times like this. He certainly was loved and cared for when alive. My personal belief is that those we love never leave us and are especially watching over us during these days of deep sorrow.

I hope that you will feel his loving presence and this will help you each day to be strong for yourself and children.

We are here for you.

brooklynda

Anita: My condolences to you and your family on the loss of your precious Barney. He certainly couldn't have been loved and cared for any more than you did. Your love for him was so obvious! I'm hoping now that you will rest and take care of yourself after such a long, painful ordeal. Praying for all of you. Blessings! Brooklynda

dusteerose

Anita,

I am so sorry to hear of your darling Barney's passing. Your feelings are with you. They never left. Your concentration and feelings were on taking care of Barney and he knew it.

Many hugs,

Jen

bestrong

Dear Anita,
I am so, so sorry. I have followed your posts recently because my mom had the same kind of cancer. I could tell from Barney's posts that he was positive and upbeat and fought this beast with everything he had. Now God has other plans for him. He will be watching over you and your boys. He will always be with you. I know today was a tough day. Mother's Day this year was hard for me, as were all the "firsts" without my mom. I remember silently sobbing through "O Come All Ye Faithful" at Christmas Eve Mass this past year, just three weeks after she passed away. I am still grieving, but I have gotten through much of the pain with the help of family, friends, and my faith. Stay connected with your support systems...they will help you get you through this. I am sure your sons will be a huge source of strength for you, and you will be the same for them.
I am praying for you and sending warm, heartfelt hugs.
Tracy

tazzy1994

Anita,
I am so sorry for your loss.
P

Mar24

Anita - My condolences and prayers go out to you and the boys.

Maribeth

Marylou1

Dear Anita:
I am so sorry. . . . . . I am sure you are exhausted. This day has to be very difficult. I wish I could take some of your pain away. Only Time and God can help.
Much Love,
Marylou

kathrine00021

Anita - I am so sorry for you and your sons loss. I will pray for your family and Barney. He is in a better place now. It was so hard to read your post because my husband is dealing with what Barney dealt with and I've been following your previous posts. May God bless Barney, you, and your family.
Love, Kathrine

hopefuldaughter

Anita, I am very, very sorry. I could tell what a great couple you were...it was so obvious the way that you posted together and both offered support here. I hope your boys and you are able to get through these first difficult days okay. It WILL get better, it just takes time. Please remember that the folks on this board will be here for you for a long, long time.

Pam

sheilake

My deepest sympathy on this Father's Day, Anita. We hold you in our hearts as you and your sons grieve your loss.

Hugs,
Sheila

SuzzieQ

Anita

I am so very sorry about Barney. My thoughts and prayers are with you and the boys. God Bless you all.

Sue

irmaly

Anita, how lucky Barney was to have you by his side all this time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your boys.

sharpie

Dear Anita,

So sorry to hear of Barneys' passing. My sincere condolences to you and your boys.

Warm regards,
Rose

Cancerblog

Anita:

I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are for you this Father's Day.

Tom

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