I haven't been in pain and the liver has shrunk since my new/old chemo. That's good. I've had the equivalent of two rounds.
This is my usual week off, by Friday I'll be missing and I'll be gone 2 weeks then have my "first" of the "third" round a few days early, when I get back. Planning on the CT to be scheduled at that time (27th).
I hate being a nurse. I am realizing I have some symptoms of ascites, including the fluid in my arms the increase in girth (I haven't gained, just figured I've lost muscle tone).
And I've been very short of breath especially when bending over even though my lungs are perfectly clear. That's the biggie. My (family) doctor is back from maternity leave but I can't see her til the 29th. I don't know that I would want to see the oncologist before I get back, on the 26th. Should I call though and see if we can schedule that MRI in the next couple days or for the day after I see him? I know I'll insist we schedule it even if he doesn't offer, but it sometimes takes a few days.
I don't think I'll call before I leave -- this is the closest thing I have had to a vacation in many, many, years and the first time my daughter and I will be alone together ever. I wouldn't miss it for the world. And I'll get to meet my cousin-in-law who has this as well, figured one or both of us -- well I guess we could meet n the next world but it'll be fun to meet in this one.
This scares me, again -- everyone has drawbacks, most worse than mine, and frankly I bounce back way quickly. But I wasn't fond of liver mets and I'm especially not fond of the thought of ascites.
If the mets has cleared up, if ascites is removed will it stay gone?
That and my brain are 'worry' points. I will be getting a new brain MRI 11/2 and seeing the neurosurgeon that day -- but the concerning part isn't a repeat it's the word thing. You know the thing -- where you can't find the word. That seems to be especially especially bad lately. And very short-term memory -- like it goes not out the window but half-way, I can usually find it again before it goes all the way but that depends on when I try to retrieve it. This feels like more than chemo brain.
I seriously doubt I'll do whole brain radiation. The ascites could make it a moot point, if it exists it almost certainly would be malignant, right? The stats are like 8 months to a year with ascites. Yea, I know all about stats. Mom lasted 8 months with hers, maybe that's what I have in my mind. But she wasn't in the best of health.
Usually I ask for stories and I get prayers. Clearly, that has been the right answer so far.
But can anyone tell me an ascites story, with or without the happy ending? Can it go away and NOT come back? I don't know if it is significant enough to drain, but if it affects my breathing ... maybe. Something is. Oh darn I'm convincing myself to call and talk to the nurse. I still want comments about ascites.




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