I will be on dialysis soon. I can only hope that I will finally begin to feel better.I woke up this morning with some serious dizziness and feeling really sick. If only I could throw up and make it all go away. I finally told my wife yesterday what is to come. She understands and is very supportive. I can only hope that my sickness does not interfere with her schooling cause she really needs to finish. Only one more year to go and she's done. I have an appt on Tuesday with the surgeon for the dialysis. My neph warns me that there is a possibility of complications with the procedure, since my kidney function is down to 8% and decreasing. The crappy part is that I have to get up and go to work feeling this way. If only I could stay home when I'm feeling sick. But I can't for we don't have enough funds and insurance. I'm at work now, and I really don't feel good, but I can't afford to leave. I really hate being in this position. I'm keeping positive thoughts and attitude every chance I get. Always thinking, it could be worse. But that does not make me feel any better. My job is a bit stressful, which helps to raise my blood pressure. It seems now that some new medication that I am taking is making me feel even worse. But I am taking so many meds that I'm not sure which one it is. At times I feel like not taking anything at all and letting whatever happens, happen. But the headaches are over bearing when my pressure is high. Well its time to get to work, or at least try.