Want a Mother figure..

How often do you hear about "mother figures"..I mean I hear people saying He's a good father figure..but never really heard she is a good mother figure. Just occured to me.
I am 37 yrs old a mother of 3. I grew up in a home that was very metally and emotionally abusive. My biological mother was a bipolar alcoholic who abuse prescription drugs. I tried to for years and years to have a relationship with her. No matter how bad she treated me I always gave her another chance, she is my Mom. But when she became abusive towards my kids, I had to draw the line. She is no longer in my life. I haven't talked to her but once in almost 7 years. The one time was a time a cpl of years after the abuse occured. I never really had a mother, we never bonded due to her disease of the mind. I felt cheated by God. I wanted to have a bond so badly with her and It just wasn't gonna happen. I wanted her to get better. I still pray for her and hope the best for her. I love her. I just can't be around her. She is to abusive. I can't and won't subject me or my family to it.
But I've never stopped wanting a mother. I do the best I can with my children and I've been told I'm a good mom. But I know nobody's perfect of course. And when I feel I make mistakes..I wish I had a mother figure I could turn to and say "hey mom i need advice, or hey mom I had a bad day, or just hey mom". I often get jealous of my friends who do a good mother but am happy for them. It does upset me when those that have good mothers take them for granted. Even with my own kids. I am over protective with them at times, probably due to what I've been through in my life. I do expect respect from them and being the age they are at..2 tweens..I don't always get it. I also have a 6 yr old. She is respectful. I asked her not to get any older, she said ok Mom,lol. Well I will go for now, I just been feeling sorry for myself lately. It will pass. I was lucky enough to have a wonderful grandmother who passed in 85', she was the closest thing I had to a mother, so the lost was hard. She still gives me strength to this day. But if anyone wants to adopt a 37 year old woman as a dd, I'm here,lol.
Have a great day!