oct 20 th marks 10 years since heart attack

today marks 10 year anniversary of my heart attack......... a massive one that alot do not survive but i did and here 10 years later to tell my story and LIVE i was 32 young and health so i thought the only thing i did wrong was smoke and i am 10 years smoke free yeah......
i worked the day beofre a 12 hour shift as a waitress a job i trully enjoyed and loved
went home wasnt feeling good all my regulars noticed i was pale white and not looking good
went home smoked my last cigarette went to sleep and by the grace of god he woke me up at 5 am as my husband was getting ready for work to a full blown massive heart attack he called 911 and they came out we lived in small town so they all knew me and i only remeber bits and pices of what happened that day what i do remeber is them putting me in ambulance and saying my bp was really low so they would be real careful with nitro sent to the closet hopsital where all i knew is i was hurting and the one person i wanted was my hubby because of my age he had to let them know about teh thallium stress test i just had 5 days proir so they could get teh result and within getting teh results teh knew i was having a massive heart attack and gave me adrug to help but only after my hubby told them they kept asking me if i took illect drugs pissed me off they tried to get air flight in to take me to a major hospital but it was out so they brought a med care ambulance with doctor to take me to major hopsital during that drive they lost me twice got to hopsital and was put in ccu for two days to get stabilzed taken downon oct 22 for a cardiac cath once in there they came out and told my hubby that he had to sign it was life or death i was going into emergent bypass surgery i had a 95% blockage in my left main cornary artery and would not survive and tehy told him not to excpect me to survive scared the shit out him he kissed me and said i will see you soon had surgery in ccu for 4 days when i woke up i asked what teh hell happened to me as i seen my hubby sitting next to me looking worn and so tired as he was taking care of me in hopsital going home taking care of our kids plus making sure all the guys at work where doing their job so his plate was so full he aged in those 10 days i was in the hopsital but i am so thankful for him as he would not let them tie me down like they do after open heart surgery he said no i will watch her as he did ...they said i would only live 2 years from all this and here 10 years later i am here i am alive in april of 08 i got my icd (trigger as we call it) depression hard ache letdowns everything you can think of i have been there and done that but what keeps me ticking is my family the love and support of them seeing my kids graduate high school two get married and see a grandaughter born,,,,,,all this is my life and i treasure it everyday and i intend to be here for them as they are for me.......heart disease is just that a word its all in how you LIVE your LIFE and what you wnat out of LIFE......... yeha i have MY days but i look at my picture wall and cry and say thank you god for letting me to stay here for them god has blessed me in so many ways and i belive everythig happens for a reason.......... so HERE'S TO 10 YEARS AND WITH THE LOVE OF MY FAMILY AND THE GRACE OF GOD I PRAY FOR MANY MANY MANY MORE....... so to all you just starting on this adventure BREATHE AND LIVE its all in how you take this disease it sees no age no gender it attacks but you have to control it not it control you

live life love life
god bless
surviving heart disease one day at a time
with trigger 04/08
for 10 years
nanamo