Hi my name is Jessica and i am 30yrs old. I have been living child free for 12 yrs almost 13yrs. I always thought that time would heal everything or it just wasn't the right time, but i am 30 now. I like to lay everything all down so that everyone can be on the same page and understant the severity of this condition. Throughout the years, i have watched all of my family, my exhusband, and friends all have kids. I have been depressed and tried to kill myself with pill overdose, cutting myself, but it just is not my time. I feel so alone in this world and people never know what to say when you finally find that one person to confide in. Insurance does not cover infertility it only cover when you are pregnant already but any problems you are on your own. I didn't ask to be like this and infertility is not something you can catch from me. I have never been pregnant and i feel like shit. Of course you have good days but it seems the bad outweigh the good. Thank you for letting me share i really thought i was the only one. I meet people who have kids and have trouble having anymore or who has had a misscarriage at this point i feel like to have had a child at all is better than to never bare children at all.