I have not been on here in a while because after adopting my DS a lot of feelings about my infertility have subsided. I'm not saying disappeared, just not so all consuming. We just completed our homestudy for adoption #2 and should be on the official waiting list at the beginning of March.
In the last 6 months, they think that they have "fixed" my DH's fertility issues; there were some severe environmental factors that have been eliminated. So I went to the doctor this week feeling like I am the defective one. She gave me something new to try. She gave me no stats or false hope; just that a side effect of this medication is better fertility.
A few weeks ago, my DH and I were out on a date night, and he made a comment that has stuck with me. He said, "You are so beautiful, it is ashame we are not going to get to pass that on." I wanted to start crying right then and there. I still want that biological aspect. Don't get me wrong, I love my DS with all my heart, but when I take him out, people say, "Oh, he must look like his daddy." I just smile and say that he does have blue eyes just like his daddy.
I feel terrible for even feeling this way. Damn this condition! We are not meant to have to go through this.
Your thoughts? Feelings? Suggestions?